Jonathon Wardman

I have to tell you this!

I have just been talking to Geraint on the net, and he told me that Ben (W) is going out again…but this time with…well, he made me guess (I thought about it, but I wasn’t sure, so he told me the first letter, Z, and I got it from that)…Zoe!  Now, what is so special about that?  Well, when we were all at school together, Geraint and I noticed that they constantly flirted with each other, and we made a prediction that in the end something would happen.  Nothing did.  Soon enough Caroline came along, and things started to blossom there.  We predicted this time that he would end up going out with her, and sure enough, he did (I don’t know, if you are a long time following you might remember, lol).  We also said that it wouldn’t last too long, and we were right – it didn’t.  Now though he is with Zoe…that prediction from ages ago (ahh, how satisfying!).  I asked Geraint how long he things it will last, and he only gives it a few weeks – they don’t live anywhere near each other, and they don’t go to the same school/college, and we don’t really see how they could see each other unless they go out of their way especially, and Geraint, who goes to the same college as her, informs me she has become a bit of a ‘Sl..i..ag’, on top of that, as G put it, he does seem to have a knack for getting though them, sooooooo.  Hmm, I didn’t make any prediction (give me time, and I will do, just let me sleep on it 😉 ).  Hmmm, I just had to tell you that, its soo exciting (I’m sure you agree, lol).

I stayed at Natalie’s last night, and it was really nice, but I had to come home early because her dad, who usually gives me a lift back, couldn’t get his car out because of the snow.  So I was sitting at home talking to Natalie online and someone knocked on the door – it was Emma and her b/f, Mike (who had wanted to meet me apparently), and one of her friends (I had seen him before at her party, but wasn’t sure who it was…its Olly apparently).  Anyway, I left Natalie just saying ‘Oh, Emma is here :-\’ and went to answer the door (not expecting to be long).  I talked to them on the door step for a while, before my dad asked if I was going to invite them in…so I did.  We went into the kitchen and talked for a while.  During this time Natalie had been trying to talk to me online (when I wasn’t at my computer), and got upset about it, and signed off, and tried to ring both me and Emma.  Neither of us answered because my phone was in my room, and I don’t know where Emma’s was (she didn’t have it on her though, I don’t think…at least it didn’t ring).  We talked for quite a while I guess (I don’t know how long), before coming up to my room for them to see the cat (sleeping on my bed).  When we got there, I saw that I had missed calls, so I looked who it was, and just as I did, Natalie rang again.  She wasn’t happy.  I said I would get rid of them, and ring her back, which I did.  When I rang her back I explained what had happened, and we talked.  The thing is, Emma has a bit of a past which means that Natalie doesn’t like her much (I think I might have mentioned bits of it in here…in fact I’m sure of it), and she wasn’t happy that she had come round and that I had left talking to her for Emma and Mike and Olly.  I understand her point about me not saying bye, but then I didn’t think that I would be that long, and I didn’t intent to just leave her, but I couldn’t exactly say to the people who had turned up that they had to go because she was on the internet, its rather impolite, so I thought Natalie would understand.  Hmm, anyway, we talked about that, and about a few other things which have been getting sort of between us recently, and I think we have got it sorted out…I mean, I think talking tonight helped.

All I know is that I love that girl and I don’t mean to upset her, ever, but sometimes we both get upset about things we really don’t need to – maybe reading too much into things, and taking things the wrong way.  I can’t say why things like that happen for her, but I know why I sometimes react in ways I don’t need to – because I care so much for her, and I’m so scared of losing her, sometimes I think I’m going to, or I feel like I might…and I’d do anything to stop that, really, anything…maybe that’s the problem, I think things are going to go wrong too easily, and I try to do something about it, when I would do better to just leave it alone.

Either way, I think we are better, and she has done somethings that are really sweet tonight, and I know, really I do, that every bit of how I feel for her is returned.  Hmm, I love Natalie.

Mike however (seeing as I have to put this in here now I mention him), seems alright.  Honestly I think we would get on well if we knew each other in another way (not that we wont this way, but I doubt I will see him much).  We have talked to each other on the net quite a bit, and we get on well there, and we got on well today (although I have to say that it was a bit of an awkward sort of meeting, maybe not the best way, but it went alright). Something struck me though – when we were in the kitchen Emma picked up a leaflet which was on the table about our dentist.  She wasn’t sure where it was, so I explained (its the private one on the height street by the Belgian chocolate shop)…and she knew which one it was…but she commented on it being private.  Mike said that he had private dentists too, and went though his wallet to find his dentplan card.  It was then that I realised something odd – he seems to only have one front top tooth.  As far as I know its normal to have two at the top of the front (at least most people I know have, lol), but he only had one.  It didn’t look like there was one missing, because the one that there was right in the centre…but I think it must be really…weird…to try to bite things like that…I don’t see how it would work!  Hmmmm, ahh well, cant make too much comment – just look at my bottom teeth – I have one in front of another at one point (though, it doesn’t look too bad, lol).

So, then I did college work, and talked to Geraint (heh, back to the beginning of the entry…), and that’s about all for today.  It’s back to college tomorrow, and all the wonderful things that brings with it…to be honest, I’m counting the days until I can get out of that sort of education…but that’s another entry.

PS…I just had to edit this because I did intend to put it – just got carried away – I just had an urge to put Blue on to listen to a while back tonight, and then came the thought that I could also listen to Hanson…so I have Blue and Hanson playing around at me tonight…is that safe?  😛  Hehe, I think they are both good, but only when I am in this kind of mood, isn’t it weird…  😉