Oh dear. I think I have a motivational problem…I’m never in the mood to write in this at times when I actually can write in this. I have actually thought about it, and wanted to do it quite a few times since I last actually did, but they have all been times when I have not been able to, then when I get back to my computer and actually can do it, I don’t feel in the mood. Its not good. Anyway, I’m here now, and I’m not going to make any more excuses! I don’t even actually remember when I last did write here, but I will try to not miss anything out I haven’t written about before! [read more]
So she’s gone – she went yesterday.
I stayed over at Natalie’s house on Monday night. I met her at 11.30 (she said 11, I said 11.30 so that I would remember I had to set off at 11 – in the past we have said times like that to meet, and next day I have thought I remembered that I had to set off at 11…so get there late!) and she had a few things to do (some shopping for her mum and something else I can’t remember now), so we did them, and set off back to her house. On the way back we were talking about how this was the last time she would be coming that way for a while…it felt weird because its the last time I would be going that way for a long time as well…I held her hand (I always do…but this time) it felt different – more special in some ways. We got back to her house and hugged a bit…and then she remembered she had forgotten that she needed more passport size photos while we were in Halifax. So we had to go out again. About an hour after we got back, we went out again. Back in Halifax we got some more food and then she went for her photo at the booth in the bus station. Those things never make you look good (when I had my picture taken for university I scanned it in and edited it a bit, then got my mother to print it onto photo paper at work so I didn’t look tooo bad…), but she didn’t look too bad in the end (I don’t think, but I couldn’t make her believe that). And after that we headed back to her house again…back along the way we thought we wouldn’t be going for a long time…this time we wouldn’t. [read more]
Well I have so much to write about! I’m starting this now (just gone 1am, Monday morning), but I bet I don’t end up finishing tonight, lol. So here goes…
Well, its the holidays from college now (yey) actually has been for the last week, but I don’t seem to have had much rest – my computing project was supposed to have been in for the Friday that we broke up, but it wasn’t despite my staying up all night on Thursday to attempt to get it done. I took what I had done of it (something like 27 pages) to David my tutor on Friday and told him that he could have that now, and I would give him more as I got it done (ie, over the weekend), or I could give him it all in one go later. He said he would be in college on Thursday so I could get it to him then. That was great, and so that’s what I did. It still wasn’t finished though, but this time it wasn’t my fault – the people I made the system for didn’t get back to me with feedback quickly enough to be able to put in an appraisal – and I didn’t want to spend loads of money on a print out of my program listing for the appendix when I can do it free at college! So I took the rest of it in on Thursday. When I got there I found that the staff room was totally deserted, and on his desk was Paul’s project as well. I don’t really know if that’s a good sign – had I missed the time he was in, so he will get it really late, or had he just not been in that day meaning that it wasn’t my fault? Either way, I left it on the desk and went. In the car park I helped to get a car going, and then went on clothes shopping. [read more]
Hello,
I have no idea how to start. I’m just sat in front of my computer hoping that I’ll be able to find the appropreate way to say the things I want to say. I guess this is one time when the well practiced English skills have deserted me. Starting’s always the most difficult thing to do in letters and E-mails. Once you have the start the rest should just come out of thin air. But I’m a paragraph in and still have no idea how to say it.
I guess I’ve chosen this method of communication because it’s easier than doing things face to face. I know we’ve talked but I’ve found it quite difficult to communicate my feelings to you that way. I find verbally communicating my feelings daunting and a little bit frightening. I know I always manage to mess up what I want to say when speaking to you because I get so nervous and just end up jibbering on or getting my words mixed up. Or I just end up missing the point entirely. [read more]
I’m so glad the holidays are looming. This is the last week before two weeks off…and its about time. The scary thing about it is that after this holiday we will have just a few more weeks before the exams kick in…and I mean proper exams…like…the most important exams of my entire life :-\
It’s comforting a little to think that I could just do nothing for some of them and still pass, but I want to get into the Unis I have chosen, so I have to do well! And talking about University, I got a letter from Exeter the other day about accommodation. They have accommodation lists now, and a little posh booklet from which I need to pick where I want to live for at least one year of my life (that is if I get there…). I think I’m going to put off choosing until the holidays though, because I don’t have the time to sit and talk to people about it (my parents, Natalie) at the moment.
And on the subject of Natalie – I’m going to spend lots of time with her in the holidays hopefully (around her work, and the college things Im going to do, and the revision we both are going to do…). Umm, and that’s about all I can say about that, just that I’m going to try to be with her a lot.
And for the last week I have…umm…well done college stuff mainly – I have had to get my computing done (last minute rush, hehe). I have done it, but now have 2 nights to get the documentation done to the point that I can hand it in…blah. Friday I am having 3 hours of politics (that’s 10.30-11.30, 1-2, 3-4) which will be joyful (yeah, right), and then in the first week of the holidays I have penciled in 3 other lessons for ‘revision’ (it will be for the other 3 who are taking it, but new for me because I’m behind, apparently)…and they are in the evenings of the Monday and Tuesday, and then some other time for Wednesday (I think, can’t quite remember).
Finally, my parents are off to Malta in the second week of Easter…so I will be at home, and I have invited Natalie to come and stay with me the nights they are gone. So hopefully 🙂
And that’s it I think!
Argh, nearly a month (and I did try at one point, but it didn’t work), hmm, never mind its all been kinda the same…sooo…
Yeah, so I’m taking time out from my computing project which I am really going at now – it has to be done by the Easter holidays so I have two weeks, and an entire thing to write :-\ I will do it, hehe. [read more]
Ooops, its been a bit too long…I’ve had quite a lot on, and I just sort of have forgotten (I have not done any diaries actually – even the one for the project that I am doing has been left…while I have been working on the thing :-\ lol.
Anyway, hmm, well its the holidays this week (half term), but I haven’t really stopped. Tomorrow is about the only day that I haven’t got anything really to do, so I’m going to use it to rest and I think change my bed and some college work. Probably just sleep. [read more]
…all my exams are over! For now at least. They start again in May/June.
I did my final exam on Monday morning – it was Physics unit 4, and it was hard :-\ But never mind, we will see how it goes, and I can always do it again in June (I don’t want to, but I can, lol).
The rest of the week has been pretty laid back (sort of mainly because I have made it laid back with choosing not to do much, lol). I have done a little college work, although I haven’t had any set, I have worked on my computing project a little, so that’s coming on. Other than that I havn’t done much. [read more]
Well then, I’m in college and have just had an exam (well, I say just but that’s not quite true – it finished at 10.30 and its now 11.20, but I haven’t done anything in between. There was supposed to be a physics lesson at 10.45 so I sat outside the room waiting until about 10 to 11 when the biology teacher came out and said she hadn’t seen Duncan, so she rang through to the office to see if he was in. He isn’t – he is ill. So I wandered up to see if I could find Fiona and tell her that I didn’t want to wait about for an hour and a half until General Studies with nothing to do…I couldn’t find her at all so I was about to go when she came round the corner. I said to her that I was probably going home, but she pretty much begged me to come to the lesson, so I said I would do…and I thought I would come in here to do this to fill in the time…so here I am!). [read more]
Ahhh then, what has happend since last time…lets see…
Last Wednesday I had a dentist appointment (which I know I mentioned), and I went, and it was alright – my mum rang ahead and they said there was just one form to sign and that was it. That wasn’t quite true. There was a form that I had to fill in about my education, and one about my teeth and dental history (and health in general – allergies, etc.). So I did that, but I didn’t know when I last went to the dentist (which was one of the questions), so I left it – pretended that I hadn’t seen it, and thought that it wouldn’t matter anyway…so as I sat there in the dentists chair (looking up at an areal photo he has of the town on the ceiling), and I saw him reach for the form, have a glance though it and then he asked me when I last saw a dentist. It was typical – the one thing that I didn’t know so missed off he thought was the most important thing on the form, lol. I had to admit that I didn’t know, so he must have known I missed it off on purpose (oh well…). [read more]