Hello,
I have no idea how to start. I’m just sat in front of my computer hoping that I’ll be able to find the appropreate way to say the things I want to say. I guess this is one time when the well practiced English skills have deserted me. Starting’s always the most difficult thing to do in letters and E-mails. Once you have the start the rest should just come out of thin air. But I’m a paragraph in and still have no idea how to say it.
I guess I’ve chosen this method of communication because it’s easier than doing things face to face. I know we’ve talked but I’ve found it quite difficult to communicate my feelings to you that way. I find verbally communicating my feelings daunting and a little bit frightening. I know I always manage to mess up what I want to say when speaking to you because I get so nervous and just end up jibbering on or getting my words mixed up. Or I just end up missing the point entirely. [read more]
Ooh, back again, just in time to see March out…and again I can’t think of a title for the entry, lol.
It’s all because nothing is happening, so I have nothing to write about. College rolls on and on (and on, and on, etc.). I just can’t wait to get out…and I think everyone I know feels the same – its not just people at my college, people at my old school feel the same, and people I know at other colleges feel the same. It’s just time for us all to move on, and find something different to do. Something different like Uni…but I need to get there yet…that’s the thing – I have to work hard now when I don’t want to, and don’t feel enthused to, in order to get to there where I will want to. Blah, life is hard 😛
I’m still working on my computing project, but I think I will have it done tomorrow or Wednesday (at least I damn well hope so – its already taken a day longer than I wanted it to, although, granted I didn’t work at it as much as a planned last week (going out and all that…actually, did I talk about that last entry? I don’t think I did…on to that in a second), lol. [read more]
…and we didn’t come 2nd, 3rd or 4th. But honestly that’s not the point. It was a lot of fun!
Do you remember back a while ago I wrote about a competition our band was going to enter? Well it was last night. We didn’t win. We didn’t expect to win either – it was only our first ever public performance for one thing, and for another we aren’t all that good 😉 [read more]
Ooops, its been a bit too long…I’ve had quite a lot on, and I just sort of have forgotten (I have not done any diaries actually – even the one for the project that I am doing has been left…while I have been working on the thing :-\ lol.
Anyway, hmm, well its the holidays this week (half term), but I haven’t really stopped. Tomorrow is about the only day that I haven’t got anything really to do, so I’m going to use it to rest and I think change my bed and some college work. Probably just sleep. [read more]
Ahhh then, what has happend since last time…lets see…
Last Wednesday I had a dentist appointment (which I know I mentioned), and I went, and it was alright – my mum rang ahead and they said there was just one form to sign and that was it. That wasn’t quite true. There was a form that I had to fill in about my education, and one about my teeth and dental history (and health in general – allergies, etc.). So I did that, but I didn’t know when I last went to the dentist (which was one of the questions), so I left it – pretended that I hadn’t seen it, and thought that it wouldn’t matter anyway…so as I sat there in the dentists chair (looking up at an areal photo he has of the town on the ceiling), and I saw him reach for the form, have a glance though it and then he asked me when I last saw a dentist. It was typical – the one thing that I didn’t know so missed off he thought was the most important thing on the form, lol. I had to admit that I didn’t know, so he must have known I missed it off on purpose (oh well…). [read more]
I have just been talking to Geraint on the net, and he told me that Ben (W) is going out again…but this time with…well, he made me guess (I thought about it, but I wasn’t sure, so he told me the first letter, Z, and I got it from that)…Zoe! Now, what is so special about that? Well, when we were all at school together, Geraint and I noticed that they constantly flirted with each other, and we made a prediction that in the end something would happen. Nothing did. Soon enough Caroline came along, and things started to blossom there. We predicted this time that he would end up going out with her, and sure enough, he did (I don’t know, if you are a long time following you might remember, lol). We also said that it wouldn’t last too long, and we were right – it didn’t. Now though he is with Zoe…that prediction from ages ago (ahh, how satisfying!). I asked Geraint how long he things it will last, and he only gives it a few weeks – they don’t live anywhere near each other, and they don’t go to the same school/college, and we don’t really see how they could see each other unless they go out of their way especially, and Geraint, who goes to the same college as her, informs me she has become a bit of a ‘Sl..i..ag’, on top of that, as G put it, he does seem to have a knack for getting though them, sooooooo. Hmm, I didn’t make any prediction (give me time, and I will do, just let me sleep on it 😉 ). Hmmm, I just had to tell you that, its soo exciting (I’m sure you agree, lol). [read more]
Honestly, the police told us. Yesterday when I was in the afternoon, my mum came up and said there was a police woman downstairs who was trying to find out if there was anyone who had seen an attempted break in next door. Apparently someone had tried to get into his conservatory, but had been scared off. Now our kitchen looks out straight over his conservatory, and they think that a light coming on in our kitchen scared them off. Next door went to bed at about 12, and my parents went to bed at about 11, but I went downstairs at 1.30 to put the bread on for the next morning…and put the kitchen light on. I can’t say I realised, or that I saw anything, but they think that me going down to make the bread scared them off, lol. I don’t think they would have got away with anything if they had got in – the alarm would have just gone off, and they would have gone then – but its always nice to know I probably prevented it.
I haven’t written since Christmas so I will try to get this up-to-date now. [read more]
I actually don’t know when the last time I wrote in here was, or what I put, so you will have to excuse me if I say things again, but I will try not to 🙂
Well, since I broke from college I have to say I don’t feel to have stopped (not that it was that long ago). Wednesday when we finished I saw Natalie for the evening, and then came back to do some college work. Thursday I didn’t see her, and I needed to get some more presents for Christmas, so I set off at about twenty past 8 to get into Halifax and get the 9.10 bus to White Rose (I thought I would go there, because I might be able to get what I wanted for my mum’s birthday, and maybe my parent’s Christmas presents, and some ideas for my grandma…in the end I came back with none of those). I got there about 5 to 10, and set about looking round all the department stores for a choppy thing that my mum wanted. None of them had one. I wandered about a lot, looked in HMV at the DVDs and some music, bought none of it (actually I thought I would buy one as a present to my self if I got all my shopping done that day…but I didn’t, so I didn’t get a treat, lol), then went on to Woolworths where I bought a chocolate orange for everyone who will be in our house on Christmas day, and then on to Clinton’s for my mum’s birthday card and some more wrapping paper. I had some lunch, and then set off home again. I was back by 1 which was quite impressive (hmm, I say that, but it was a long time to buy some chocolate oranges, lol). [read more]
Hmm, yes, yey, lol.
I have started it now though, and I have got a good idea what I am going to get for people…except my grandma.
I have been out shopping today and bought some nightwear for Natalie, which is nice. I know my parents want some bins (hmm, thats what they asked for, so I will get them, lol), so I need to get those…probably be able to get them from Halifax at some point, so thats ok. Other than that, Im a bit stuck. My mum is thinkning about grandma for me, and I will keep my eyes open, sooo…we will see.
Looking forward to the holidays which start next Wednesday, so I can be with Natalie. I miss her.
But thats about all I wanted to say, sooo…
It’s been wonderful, really, really nice.
On Saturday, I went to theatre school as normal, and met up with all my friends and Natalie, then we went off to Burger King as usual, and ate.
Natalie was supposed to be going on on her work’s Christmas party (and I was supposed to be shopping with Ben for Christmas stuff while she was there), but it was cancelled, so we had the whole day together. We went to visit her grandparents, and then… [read more]